Student Budget Skin Care Favourites

Being a student can be a struggle in terms of money. But that shouldn’t stop you from having a good skincare regime. But I’ve found a few good things that aren’t going to burn a whole in your pocket.

Garnier Micellar Cleansing Water 125ml

 

This bottle of cleansing water is only little but a little of this stuff goes a long way. Takes off makeup and gets all they grime out your face before bed or first thing in the morning. I’d really recommend. You can get this in Boots £1.99.

Boots Essentials Cucumber Wipes 25sSimple Kind To Skin Cleansing Facial Wipes 7s

Some people are against face wipes but personally I don’t see a problem, if you use a few to clean your face to prevent moving dirt all over your face is best. These are two I have used the boots own works well and is good if you have sensitive skin. Also they are often on 3 for £3. The simple ones are a little more expensive at £3 a pack but are often on special Simple Skincare offers.

Any of the the Simple Kind to Skin moisturisers are amazing in my opinion. They have a wide range for different skin types including hydrating and oil balancing. Always on the boots.com website I see 3 for 2 on Simple products so you can grab your whole skincare regime products in one.

Top tip – purchase baby cotton wool or pleats because they are often cheaper and you get so much more. Also you get bigger pads so you can use one for you whole face if that’s applying toner or removing makeup.

Face masks can be super expensive but personally if you fancy a bit of a pamper then go to the chemist and grab a face mask sachet and get some cucumber or tea bags on your eyes and relax in the bath. the mask will draw out or the shit from your face and you’ll feel amazing.

My main skincare I have used for long time but never actually paid for is the Soap and Glory face milk. I get it every year for Christmas in the Soap and Glory gift boxes, pop it on your Christmas list.

Hope this helps any of you struggling students 🙂

 

Super Easy Battered Halloumi

Me and my boyfriend are obsessed with halloumi, like ridiculously obsessed! We have it at any possible moment.

We went to a pub in Sandiway, Cheshire called the Blue Cap. Check it out if you’re local and they do an amazing battered halloumi and chips. We loved it so much I experimented with different recipes to make the best one to share with you.

I found that this was plenty to cover all the halloumi but make more or less depending. Me and my boyfriend had four each! We classed as a huge cheat meal 🙂

We used a medium-sized pan and heated some oil to point that when I dropped a bit of batter in, it floated and started to cook. When mixing the batter you want it to have the consistency of wallpaper paste, so don’t be scared if it’s kind of runny. I used soya milk and it had impact on the mixture or taste so don’t worry.

Coat the slices in the batter, we bought already bought halloumi cause we’re lazy but you can make them as thick or thin as you want. A lot of posts I saw said leave for 10-15 mins but mine didn’t need that long any time I did it, so just keep them in and turn them over until they are golden brown and look so scrummy you’ll find it hard to wait until they are cooler.

I put them on a bit of kitchen roll after cooking to get rid of excess oil and serve with some chips or a salad or whatever you feel like.

Batter Hallloumi
Save this photo on your phone and then you can easily find it when you’re on the mood for some cheesy yumminess.

Enjoy! Send me messages if you try it at home!

Loving someone with anxiety

This is quite a personal post but I hope that it helps someone.

I don’t know how to word this without sounding like people with anxiety are so different that they need loving differently, because that isn’t what I mean.

However there are definitely things that I’ve noticed about my anxiety in a relationship situation that is different to that of someone without it.

Personally and from other posts I’ve read, the fear of people leaving is the main thing. Sometimes this fear of people leaving or doing something wrong means I’m always on tender hooks and find it hard to settle. I also over think my own actions in fear that I will be the one to push people away. This response to a relationship is an insecurity thing I think. It’s possibly to protect myself from being hurt.

When me and my boyfriend began dating I was so hesitant to make anything serious and chose to push him away and lie about my feelings because I was scared. Thank god he carried on trying!

Knowing somebody is there can sometimes be enough. For me to know that I’m not alone and that if something goes wrong someone will be there to help and support me. Just having Rob there to say ‘It’ll be okay’ or ‘I’m here’ can literally make everything better instantly. Having him there to just listen is sometimes what I need, even if we’re drunk and neither of us makes much sense its kind of cathartic. Other times I don’t want him to say anything, just carry on like normal. Also at night time I struggle to sleep sometimes and having Rob there makes it easier then when I’m alone.

The worst case scenario is the first thing that comes to my head most of time. It isn’t that I don’t trust you or anything like that its my mind running my emotions.

For me silence is the hardest thing, I often sleep with music or a TV on, I will sit and do work with something on in the background. This sort of drowns out any unnecessary worries that jump into my head. Also if people don’t reply to my texts or something like that I jump to the worst thought that I’ve done something wrong or they don’t like me. That would be seen as ‘needy’ or ‘clingy’ but for me that is just what is happening in my brain.

A major thing for me and Rob is that I don’t like going out and he does. Clubs and parties don’t really interest me to start with but also they are quite big trigger for me. Not that I ever panic when I’m out, for me its the build up and my brain over thinking everything that could go wrong on a night out. I try my hardest to go out on special occasions because I don’t want to feel left out or come across as rude. Also going out for meals with a group of people I worry about because of the need to talk or impress, Rob is really good at talking to people and being chatty and I love watching people listen to him, cause he’s so funny.

I hope that makes sense. Obviously it is different for everyone and most of those things apply to any relationship you have with anyone. But for me they are the things I have noticed I need a little more help with because of my anxiety and those days when I’m a little low. I hope this has helped anyone or you might have just found it interesting.

Okay cool, I feel better for writing that so if that’s all its good for then yeah. 🙂

Overcoming fears

Over the last few years I have created lots of fears in my head that cause me to be unnecessarily anxious. Little things like trains, cars, parties, supermarkets, noise and people. The trains issue I have been forced to overcome, with travelling from London back up to home everyone once in a while but now commuting from Wimbledon to Guildford everyday for work. I’ve come to realise that I was the one implanting those feelings and fears, there was no real reason.

The major thing I am overcoming is new things. New things could be anything from a new meal in a restaurant to a new house. I’ve just started my new job this week. Something that I’m finding quite fun to be honest. Yes it is hard not because of what I have to do but more the travel and the newness (if that’s a word) of the job. It’s a lot of new faces, new things and places which sends my anxiety scale off the charts but I’d like to congratulate myself on how well I’ve dealt with it! (Pats myself on the back).

It’s a big deal overcoming stuff and can be super exhausting! I can tell you, I am absolutely shattered and I haven’t even finished my first week!

But it’s given me a little spurt of confidence to keep pushing through.

I want you to do the same. Push through that fear that is probably so unnecessary! Trust me! You will benefit from it, whether that’s that you meet new people, see new places or find a skill you didn’t know you had. It will all be worth it.

What I have for breakfast?

This seems like such a short and simple blog post but I like it all the same. It has taken me a long time to find a breakfast that really keeps me full until lunch time. I was often fed cereal as a child but never really liked any of them. Toast never works well with me, as bread flares up my IBS. Also being a student my budget is limited.

But over the past couple of months I have really experimented with different breakfasts to see what works best for me.

PORRIDGE! I fricking love porridge! It is so cheap as well. The best oats to get are the plain supermarket own brand cheap oats. Where the ingredients are just rolled oats. Getting branded oats often have added sugar, flour, additives and preservatives. In the morning it is important to have slow releasing sugars rather than refined sugar such as chocolate because you end up having a spike of energy and then you drop super low by mid-morning.

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  • Rolled Oats (45g)
  • 100ml of Oat/Soya/Almond Milk
  • 100ml of water
  • 1tbsp of Chia Seed
  • 1tbsp Flax Seed
  • A handful of blueberries/half a banana
  •  A drizzle of Pip & Nut Peanut butter

 

I vary the fruit to keep it interesting and also vary the nut butter I use as I love trying out all the Pip & Nut flavours! The milk however I think I have settled on using almond milk. It works on my macros for the day, provides a nice texture

 

 

and is much cheaper then Oat milk, in my supermarket anyway. This totals as about 330 calories (C:41g F:12 P:10) which is enough to get me through the morning and leaves me feeling very much satisfied. I normally eat at about 8:30 sometimes earlier or later depending on the day of the week but will often eat lunch at 1:30.

I think breakfast is super important to set you up for the day. Don’t get me wrong sometimes I love a good full English breakfast (vegetarian)  or eggs on toast with avocado!

But for a budget this breakfast I have found is the best for me!

I’m Moving House

As the title says I’m Moving House!!!!

I am so excited to finally be out of Uni accommodation. I have really enjoyed living with my flat mates and the location to my school has been perfect but it sometimes feels like a prison. The flat is kinda dark and on a weekend it is super quiet and feels like you’re part of a zombie apocalypse!!!

Our new house is so so so so beautiful. Its a five bedroom all with en suites, two kitchen house with four floors. It is so nice and we can’t wait to move in in August.

There are a few things I would like to purchase for my room and bathroom. I really want to make it a space that I can feel calm in and feels creative. The walls are white and it is such a bright space. I really want some fake and real plants in my room, maybe a wall hanging or tapestry. Because it is a rented property I can’t make massive changes to the property. I’ve found some really nice fake hanging plants from amazon.

My plan is to clear out my make up and other beauty products and I want to find a really cool storage system for them. They are currently on shelves in storage poaches from IKEA but i fancy something a little more instagram worthy.

I also want some new bedding and decorative cushions. If anyone knows anywhere cheap but good quality bedding, blankets and cushions. Again for my bathroom I would like a new bath mat, but I don’t want to spend lots of money on it.

I want to decorate my room in a shit load of fairy lights and photos.

Let me know if you have any places that you’d recommend for home ware at reasonable prices.

I have until August to get things really. I am living with my boyfriend for 6 weeks whilst I am between flats. I am also working 4 days a week so hopefully I have enough money to buy some new stuff for my new home with my favourite girlies.

Let me know if you want any specific blog posts in the future in the comments or tweet me. Also tag me in stuff on Instagram like home ware or something and give me some inspiration.

This Past Year…

The competitive world of Acting and Musical Theatre makes getting into a Drama School for 3 years training very hard. There are large numbers applying with very limited spaces in each school. Its hard to bounce back from getting rejected from schools but you just have to! There are other options to do whilst you keep auditioning. Many people gap year and ‘find themselves’ others work and try again the following year, or there are Foundation Courses you can audition for.

Last year I didn’t get into a school to begin in September so I auditioned for the Foundation Course at GSA. After much deliberation with my family I went to the audition and I got it. I was over the moon and couldn’t believe it, I was so excited for what the year was going to bring. I can honestly say this has been the best year of my life.

The Course gives us basic training to prepare us for a three year course. We also go beyond that. We start learning things that first years learn and explore. This is really cool because we can gain more knowledge which is never a bad thing. Different schools teach the practices of different practitioners so you may or not repeat things in first year but most likely go into more detail with them. We also get one on one tutoring for the audition process.

But apart from the education part, I have learnt so much about myself and this industry. This industry is hard. You need to be tough. I didn’t think I was before this. But I now know I am.

This course really knocked down those emotional walls I had built up over the years. This was really hard at first and I didn’t understand why they were trying to break me! But that isn’t what they were doing. For me to be fully capable of providing an honest performance I have to be honest with myself. And these walls were preventing me for understanding myself properly. Over the years things had happened to me and I’d subconsciously, brick by brick, protected myself behind a huge wall.

However there has been nothing I haven’t enjoyed on this course. Of course it threw us all out of our comfort zones at some point throughout the year but after doing these things everything got easier. I know feel more confident in general. I feel more confident in auditions, in class, in relationships and just in general life. I would highly recommend this course to anyone!

I can’t wait to continue my training whenever that starts. And this year I’m going to use everything I’ve learnt in everyday life and also keep everything fresh so I can take all this knowledge and experience into auditions and the beginning of my training.

I’m feeling good about being reflective on the year and feel super positive for the future. But you can’t live in the future, you looking forward and feel excited but you have to live in the moment.

Feeling Sad?

I personally feel that my generation has a lot of pressure and expectations put onto us by society, family & friends and ourselves. This can be good for some people, some thrive off pressure to succeed. However the majority don’t enjoy endless raising of expectations.

Living in this type of society can make people, myself included, feel pressured to please. Whether that is how I look, what I do for a job, what clothes I wear, how much money I earn, who I should be friends with etc. These pressures don’t just affect you at the time they are applied but they crop up at the weirdest times. I can be absolutely fine and then comments or goals or tasks crop into my head and I panic or stress.

I worry that I’m the only that does this. I also worry that I become a pestering mess when this happens. My way of coping with these episodes of sheer panic and stress by over-loading myself with shit to do, isn’t really consistent. Sometimes I tend to sit alone and become internally frazzled, I will probably either sit and wallow in self-pity or find a distraction. My other thing I tend to do is pine for company and either cuddle my boyfriend or vent it all out until I feel better.

Both these options are fine! It is okay to be SAD! or upset or confused or angry or whatever you’re feeling. I used to apologise for being ’emotional’ but if I wasn’t ’emotional’ then I wouldn’t be a human being. Emotions we feel can change all the time and no one really knows what these feelings are or why we get them but we do and we mustn’t punish ourselves for feeling them. Some people like myself feel emotions on quite a magnified level, everything is blown way out of proportion most of the time. This is obviously something I should work on, for myself not for anyone else! However for now I know that my brain is just doing its job. It knows when I am sad and it rides it. It knows when I am angry and it rides it. Your body is made to do these things so you can do it.

If I am ever having a sad moment or day or week I do find it hard to take a step out and look at myself and tell myself its okay. But it is.

I know that people are doing exams at school right now. When I did my exams at school I found myself listening to other peoples pressures and putting them on myself, when I am the one in control of my future and it is for my benefit not theirs. If you are doing exams right now or have any other pressures going on in your life that are being inflicted by a parent, teacher or peer. I would advice talking o that person saying you don’t need them to be so pressuring, they may not even realise they are doing it. You know how you work and succeed and it’s within your power to make sure your happy with what you’re doing. And most importantly doing it for you!

I am currently in a rather rollercoastery (not sure that is a word but never mind) period of my life with everything in my future being rather up in the air. So these moments of internally frazzled brain and continues venting to a poor boyfriend are becoming quite regular. But I know it is just my brain coping with what is going on around me.

Over the years with having a problem with anxiety I have come to realise that I have more than enough stuff to think about without letting in all that nonsense that other people try to impose on me.

Sorry if this is ranting or venting in a blog post but I just want to reassure people, that it is totally normal. And also for some personal reassurance that I am doing okay and I’m not the only who feels this way. I would love to talk more about my experience with anxiety if that was something people wanted.

Stay Safe and Happy 🙂

Mindful Chef Review

Being a Vegetarian who is lactose intolerant can be really tricky. I found that I was finding it easier to take tablets to get rid of the affects of my intolerance rather than re-working my diet to help.

My friend pointed me in the direction of Mindfulchef which they were using because everything is completely Gluten Free. They have a meat and fish section and also a Vegan section.

Personally I had always thought these companies were really overpriced and because you get the ingredients in the post I assumed it would be bad quality.

I WAS WRONG!

I have been nothing but thrilled with this company and their products. The food arrives in a big box, and each meal you order comes in paper bags. All the ingredients for each meal are all separate so you know what is for what meal. Along with the ingredients they sent the recipe card to make the meal.

Some of my favourites so far;

  • Teriyaki baby aubergines & edamame quinoa
  • Miso & edamame burgers with peanut slaw
  • Sugar snap, chickpea & cauli rice biryani

I get 3-4 meals a week for under £30. However I actually get more than one meal out of each meal so I often have it for lunch the next day as well.

I really enjoy the companies ethos of using all vegetables they grow, even the ‘ugly’ ones. They also grow all the vegetable themselves and everything you receive is fresh and in season, grown in the UK.

I have really enjoyed trying out cool new recipes to expand my vegan meal repertoire. The great thing also is that I can keep the recipe cards forever and go back to them.

The meals are super easy to make, some are a little more challenging but nothing a YouTube tutorial can’t help you with. They don’t take longer than 40 mins to cook, most of them being 20-30 mins, which is great whilst being a Drama student because I’m so tired by the time I come home sometimes I don’t want to cook anything. Having these in the fridge mean I can bulk make other food for the other days of the week.

I would highly recommend this company if you’re looking to try out something like this, you can get this for one or two people, vegan or not, gluten free or not. Let me know if you want to try it out and I have a ‘friend code’ that I can give you. www.mindfulchef.com

Setting Goals

This past week has been hard both mentally and physically. I planned to start a proper fitness schedule. However I took part in a Stage Combat Course this week which has basically been n all day workout and I haven’t had the energy to workout separately.

But I think my mental block has been due to not setting goals. I have recently read Strong by Zanna Van Dijk.

It really opened my eyes to setting goals and how that can help progression. Also the importance of setting realistic goals. I think my main issue was setting goals that were way to unrealistic and very non specific. I mean was I honestly going to be able to run a marathon this year!!!

My goals for the next year are;

  • To get onto a three year course at a Drama School
  • Become fully Vegan
  • Feel happier in myself
  • Not get angry as easily
  • Still be with my amazing boyfriend
  • Work out 3-4 times a week
  • Do Yoga at least once a week
  • One workout must be a run (start with intervals and progress)
  • Inspired by Zanna – start lifting weights

I really hope setting some clear goals and putting them out there making myself more liable – giving myself more of a reason to get them done!

I will definitely keep you updated on how I am doing.

Comment any of your goals down below 🙂